The Natural Goodness of the World


I do group workshops from time to time as part of my therapy. It is essentially a form of group therapy but my therapist does not call it “group therapy” intentionally because of the way it is structured. The workshops are always around the topic of self-love usually hitting on some specific sub-topic. I love these workshops. They are typically all female, creative in nature, and I always leave feeling like my soul has been cleansed. One thing my therapist always does is bring in all the different elements for balance. There is nature, fire, air, water etc.

I was thinking about that today when I was sitting in my living room. Todd had run out to pick up some things needed for our company, I was done cleaning so I was relaxing with my book and listening to music. At the end of my chapter I placed my book on the coffee table and looked around the room. My eyes lingered on the art, that which was made by my own hand and that which was made by some of my favorite artists. Next to my favorite piece in the room, a Jordan Crane, is our salt lamp. I love it for the beautiful hue it casts upon the room, its warm glow makes the room feel cozy. My eye then moved to the coffee table where I found myself mesmerized by the candles flickering away in their globes. There is something entrancing about a flame right? Campfires, candle light.. I get lost in it.

When I snapped out of my trance I found I was thinking about the different elements and how balanced I feel during these workshops where my therapist goes out of her way to incorporate them. Then I realized that without being cognizant of it I had done the exact same thing in my living room. All the elements were right here in front of me, keeping me grounded, offering me balance. There is the earth on the hearth, we have a large container full of stones from all the trails we have hiked in different states while traveling. There is fire provided by all the candles around the room. Water in the form of vapor coming from the oil diffuser, the oils themselves making me more aware of the air thanks to the scent they add to the room..

You are not always consciously aware of what you need to feel grounded and balanced but that doesn’t mean that you aren’t able to still show up for yourself and make sure those needs are met. I have added these elements to the room little by little over time and without the any clear intention, I just liked each thing individually. Now here they all are making this room one of the most comforting balanced rooms in our whole home.

It is the room we spend time together as a family and where we entertain friends. It is the room where I do yoga and read and write and paint/draw. It is the room where we play and dance and laugh. It is the room where life takes place and I am grateful for all the natural goodness of the world that exists in this room.


All the Good Stuff


It’s been a good week. I am feeling better finally, was back at school, back at internship, was assigned my first client, and had some fun with friends and family this weekend.

School was good, I talked some about that in my last post/feminist rant. I returned to internship later in the week and was very glad to be back. I was assigned my first client and it has been an interesting couple of days navigating all that has been going on. I am really excited for the opportunity to work with this client and the family system. I am grateful for my intern supervisor’s confidence in me, I am really excited about everything that is happening at internship right now.

My intern supervisor and I were talking earlier in the week about the importance of balance. I wanted to work some extra days to make up for time lost while I was sick and she advised against it. She said that once I have a more steady case load I will end up spending more time at internship with documentation etc and she does not want me to burn out early by not maintaining a proper balance, of course she is right. I took her advice and did not take the extra shifts.

This morning I rolled over to my two babies cuddling each other fast asleep and I was thankful to be home with them and not somewhere else. Todd and I spent the day straightening up a bit and in the evening our friends came over with their dog and we watched college football.

The best part was the dogs, they were hilarious. Our friends have a chocolate lab that is about Lucy’s age and size, the dogs had never met before. The wrestled, they played tug, they ran in the back yard. By the end of the evening both dogs were covered in each other’s drool.

It was a normal week, nothing out of the ordinary, nothing over the top.. Yet here I sit with a full heart overflowing with gratitude. Sometimes I am still in awe that this is my life, I get to have all of this and more. There is so much love, so much joy, so much simple goodness. A life that was once fear, and shame, and insecurities is now packed with all the good stuff and I do not take that for granted.

It is going to be a good fall, followed by a good winter, and a good start to a great new year – I can just feel it.

I can just feel it.