I cannot tell you if it is just the point I am at in the semester or being this close to the wedding but my life has become exceedingly busy of late. I had a slight inclination that October would be a full month but I was not prepared for this level of frenzy, which is exactly what this feels like, an absolute frenzy.
It does not help that at times I feel like things or people are working against me. In terms of people being a hindrance I certainly do not think it is deliberate. They have their own lives with their own priorities and lists of things to do and at times unfortunately our priorities and lists do not match up. This has resulted in me having to make time where I do not have it to make something happen that is a priority to me. I have also been met with a lack of understanding more than once about my time constraints and overflowing schedule. Recently any time I am asked, Hey what are you doing on blah blah day, my response is always I have to check my calendar. I write everything down I have going on and I will not answer that question, even if I feel pretty confident I know the answer, without checking the calendar first. I don’t just have something going on everyday, I have multiple somethings going on just about everyday.
An unfortunate casualty in all of this is my social life. Which that part I know is more because of school than anything. There comes a time in every semester where I have to put my head down and really focus. I usually do not see my girlfriends for about a month or so when this happens. It’s what it is though.
I am starting to feel the effects of all of this commotion though. I feel like every detail of my life is planned out through the New Year. I feel like I can’t just sit and breathe and have a moment to mentally check out. That’s not completely true I guesses. There is allotted down time here and there for Todd and I to just be. I guess I just wish I had a little more or maybe just a full day of downtime rather than an afternoon here or an evening there. What winds up happening is that moment that we allotted for downtime turns into our only opportunity to make a grocery run or catch up on laundry etc. Last weekend is a great example of that..
Friday: 9-4:30 NASW Training
4:30-5:00 Drive home
5:00 Dinner Reservations for Todd’s Birthday
10:30 Finally get home, let Lucy out, play with Lucy for a few hours since she was crated almost all day
12:00 Go to bed
Saturday: 9:30 Grocery run
11:30 Leave for friend’s daughter’s first birthday party at 12pm
1:45 Leave birthday early
2:15 Arrive home, get Lucy, leave again to go to my parent’s house by way of grocery to pick up pre-ordered birthday cake
3:15 Arrive at parents house, have exactly 1 hour to do wedding hair trial run with my Mother
4:30 Family arrive for birthday celebration and dinner
11:00 Leave parents house, drive half hour home and go to bed.
Sunday: Our “Free Day”
10:00 Wake up, have herbal tea, make to do list for the day
10:30 Clean dishes
10:45-12:30 Reorganize guest room/wedding room to make ready for company arriving in early November.
12:30 Start laundry
12:45-2:15 Yard work outside, switch out laundry and start next load
2:30 Clean Lucy’s ears
3:00-4:00 Finish music list for DJ and send in email
4:15 Start dinner, switch out laundry and start next load
5:15 Eat dinner
6:00 Take Lucy for a walk
7:00 Arrive home from walk, switch out laundry
7:15 Start to fold and put away three loads of laundry while watching a documentary
9:00 Watch Walking Dead
I swear almost every minute of our lives are planned out right now. As I write this entry I should be working on three separate school assignments that have to be finished before 6:00 which is when I have to leave to meet one of my bridesmaids for dinner so I can finally give her the bridesmaids dress she should have altered a month ago. I do not mean to sound resentful in that last statement I made, it is just one more thing for me to worry about that I wish I didn’t have to.
So you can see even Sunday which was supposed to be our day of no plans was quickly consumed by our household responsibilities. In truth it wasn’t so bad though. I got to spend the day in yoga pants and a sports bra as we checked items off our to-do list. And I will never complain about taking Lucy for a walk or watching the Walking Dead. In fact, I kind of like re-organizing the house and yard work too so all in all there isn’t much to complain about. My favorite part of the day was our walk though. It was a perfect evening. The weather was exceptional, it was right around sunset and Todd and I spent the whole walk day dreaming and talking about our future. We stopped on a bench by the lake for a while and just talked and talked soaking up every moment of the cool evening air. On the walk home I pointed out how radiant the trees looked with the red setting suns beams glowing on their branches, it was stunning. We stood there and watched the branches sway in the red light for a minute before continuing on. I was just glad to be outside seeing something pretty in nature and being in that moment with him not thinking about everything else. Thank God for long walks on autumn evenings, at least for a moment time seems to slow down.